Tuesday, December 14, 2010

The Wrath of God : Part 13

14/12/2010



“20/11/2010 - Within 30 minutes of writing this, while lying down on bed, contemplating in sorrow, I got the answer I wanted…I WAS NOT IMAGINING ANYTHING.…THANK YOU LORD…YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE…GOD IS GOOD..GOOD IS GREAT…NOTHING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED IS A COINCIDENCE LORD..IT IS ALL PART OF YOUR PLAN.What great blessing..WHAT GREAT BLESSING TO BE PART OF THIS LORD...WHAT GREAT BLESSING TO RECEIVE THIS KNOWLEDGE LORD....There is only one question left, what do all of these mean? What are you trying to tell me Lord? God has been trying to tell me something..Deep inside my heart I knew, that the whole complicated jigsaw puzzle will be completed soon..
DANIEL 2:22 "HE REVEALS DEEP AND MYSTERIOUS THINGS , AND KNOWS WHAT LIES HIDDEN IN DARKNESS, THOUGH HE IS SURROUNDED BY LIGHT..."
 THE SCRIPTURE HAS BEEN FULFILLED..AMEN & AMEN"

What actually happened was, considering the fact that I kept on receiving visions of demons and I forced myself to believe that they were merely my imagination, I couldn’t take it anymore. Everything seemed real. Hopelessly I called someone, and she said that these were mere tricks of the enemy and told that I was free. But only I knew the torment of my soul. If there is something I have learnt from my past, is to always trust your heart. While the rest of them said that I didn’t need deliverance, even pastor themselves, I knew that I had real problems and I kept on searching for the truth. This time was even more complicated, noting the fact that they saw me manifesting and getting delivered, now I cant possibly go and tell them that I have spiritual problems. No one would believe me. It was my last straw. Out of that hopelessly, as I lay on the bed, within 30minutes of writing the previous article to vent out my emotions, It just came to me that I should put to test if those visions were real or just a figment of my own mind. I didn’t delay further, I googled the images of those demons. To prevent any bias, alternated those pictures with images of “neutral” things like plants and sceneries.

The result was astonishing and greatly satisfying. The moment I saw the pictures of the demons, I started burping uncontrollably, and they stopped the moment I saw the “neutral” pictures. It was clear to me. I was not insane. I was not imagining anything. My visions were REAL. God was clearly trying to tell me something. I was fully convicted that I was NOT delivered and I desperately needed deliverance. I called up the pastor and told him my plight. I was further taken aback when he said “ Of course it is NOT over, who ever said that? I asked you to come for follow up. The deliverance is NOT over”. I was greatly relieved to hear those words. We scheduled an appointment at the church’s office the following day for another deliverance session.

Once again, as the pastor held my hands and started praying. I went through the similar sequence like previous session; I started laughing scornfully and went into a complete manisfestation. This time was far intense than the previous session. Two of the assistants restrained me from the back. Manifestation is such an unusual phenomenon. I would be completely aware of what is happening. As much as I have control Over my body and limbs, I had NO CONTROL over my facial expressions and tongue. During manifestation, the demons would take turns to manifest themselves by making characteristic facies and will scream and speak with various pitches and voices ;ranging from hoarse male voice to female voice. VERY UNSUAL EXPERIENCE. The previous session, only Demon X manifested, but this time, God knows how many demons manifested. But God was in total control, He was so gracious that everytime I would be manifesting a particular demon, God would give me a vision showing me which demon was in control at that given time. It made things easier. I have read in the past, that demons cannot be just prayed away, but must be casted out specifically. Too many demons as in TOO MANY DEMONS were in me. Though to the eyes of others, they probably thought that only now the demons are leaving my body, but the truth is, MY DELIVERANCE STARTED SINCE MARCH AND I HAVE BEEN BURPING AND VOMITING EVER SINCE. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW MANY I HAD INSIDE ME?

Sometimes it would be difficult to identify the exact demon inside, since they are well known for their LIES and deceits . ust the same way they deceive people into thinking that ghosts are dead people. ( Ghosts are demons pretending /taking human form ). As much as I would not want to describe in detail about my manifestations, I would just like to highlight few things. During manifestations, not only the demons have their own knowledge BUT THEY ALSO TAKE CONTROL OF MY SUBCONSCIOUS MIND. WHICH MEANS , THEY HAVE ACCESS TO ALL MY MEMORIES WHICH THEY CAN MANIPULATE AND USE AGAINST OTHERS. For me, the highlight was when the demons said “My name is LEGION, for we are MANY”. I was astonished. As the pastor and others kept on  praying using the name of Jesus, the demons re-enacted the SAME BIBLICAL EVENT. The demons said, “Son of Man, let us go, do not torture us. Your time has not come”. Other demon said “We want the soul of Judas Iscariot”. Later the other demon said “ I am SATAN, I am the Serpent of OLD”. After saying that, it started making hissing sounds. Its hard to say whether those demons where really inside OR the smaller ones are just pretending to be “BIG” to intimidate the pastor and others.

The important thing about demons, is that the kingdom of devil is NOT divided. They ARE ALL ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY, BROTHERS AND SISTERS. They have taken various forms on earth and deceiving people. GOD has clearly said in the bible “MY PEOPLE PERISH BECAUSE OF LACK OF KNOWLEDGE”. In my previous article I wrote on idolatry and mentioned that these are actually demons. I highlighted on the worship of “Mother Mary”. I said that it was unbiblical and the REAL Mary is long dead and is no longer here to hear prayers. As a matter of fact, she herself depends on the mercy of the Lord for her own salvation, what more of others. The point here is that, due to people’s lack of knowledge of GOD’S WORDS, the demons have taken advantage of this by making FALSE MARY apparations and asking people to pray, that today you find multitude of people building her statue and worshipping her.

THE SECOND COMMANDMENT OF THE LORD:

“YOU MUST NOT MAKE FOR YOURSELF AN IDOL OF ANY KIND OR AN IMAGE OF ANYTHING IN HEAVENS OR ON THE EARTH OR IN THE SEA. YOU MUST NOT BOW DOWN TO THEM OR WORSHIP THEM, FOR I, THE LORD YOUR GOD, AM A JEALOUS GOD, WHO WILL NOT TOLERATE YOUR AFFECTION FOR ANY OTHER GODS. I LAY THE SINS OF THE PARENTS UPON THEIR CHILDREN; THE ENTIRE FAMILY IS AFFECTED – EVEN CHILDREN IN THE THIRD AND FOURTH GENERATIONS OF THOSE WHO REJECT ME” ( EXODUS 20:4)

HOSEA 4:6  My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge. Because you have rejected knowledge, I also will reject you from being My priest. Since you have forgotten the law of your God, I also will forget your children.

2 Corinthians 11:12-15: "But what I am doing, I will continue to do, that I may cut off opportunity from those who desire an opportunity to be regarded just as we are in the matter about which they are boasting. For such men are false apostles, deceitful workers, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. Therefore it is not surprising if his servants also disguise themselves as servants of righteousness; whose end shall be according to their deeds.

NOW, YOU MIGHT WONDER, why did I open this topic again? It is important to know that before GOD gave me a REVELATION on idolatry and false practices this March 2010, I was one of those who would ask so called “Mother Mary” to pray for me. When I was young, I used to light up candles to the false image of Mary. I would buy flowers for her statue in the Catholic church. I used to say prayers. Clearly the FACT remains that I was worshipping A DEMON PRETENDING TO BE MARY IN THE PAST AND NOT THE REAL MARY WHO IS LONG DEAD.

DURING MY MANIFESTATION, GOD GAVE ME A VISION OF THE “FALSE MARY” AND I TOLD THE PASTOR, AND AS HE CALLED OUT HER NAME, SOMETHING REALLY SHOCKING HAPPENED. MY FACE CHANGED INTO A VERY CALM FACE, MY LIPS WERE SMILING AND MY EYELASHES WERE BLINKING LIKE A FEMALE. MY VOICE SUDDENLY CHANGED INTO A FEMALE VOICE, I STARTED SINGING “AVE MARIA”. IT WAS OFFICIAL, WITH TOTAL EVIDENCE THAT I HAVE BEEN RIGHT. GOD HAS BEEN RIGHT. IT WAS THE DEMON OF “FAKE MOTHER MARY” WHICH I HAD WRONGLY WORSHIPPED IN THE PAST. The pastors and others kept on praying, and She kept of singing “Ave Maria” until suddenly she stopped and started saying TERRIBLY VULGAR WORDS including “F*CK YOUR JESUS”. FULL OF VULGARITY. AT THAT TIME, I REALLY WISHED ALL THOSE BLIND PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE WORSHIPPING THE STATUE OF “FALSE MARY” WOULD WITNESS IT WITH THEIR OWN EYES THAT THEY MAY KNOW THE TRUTH. UNFORTUNATELY, there were only about 10 of us at that time, and all of us already knew the truth.

AS I wrote in my previous article on the FALSE IMAGE OF JESUS THAT PEOPLE WORSHIP, WHICH IS IN FACT A DEMON. Since when I was young, I used to pray to this FALSE image I had developed association with this demon. This demon also manifested. It started by saying Jesus lines like “ I am the way, the truth and the light” followed by terribly vulgar words like “F*ck your jesus, F*ck your God, your JESUS is dead. We killed him”.

SINCE DEMONS ARE REALLY CUNNING DECEITFUL CREATURES, AT ONE POINT, IT EVEN PRETENDED TO BE GOD AND STARTED  GIVING PROPHECY. It said things like “Behold, I am the Alpha & the Omega..I am your God etc etc”. But the pastor knew very well that it was the spirit of deception and continued praying.

Ephesians 6:10-13 NIV Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

1 Peter 5:8-10 NIV Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Prayers went on for 4 hours, various other demons manifested, which I shall not describe further. Towards the end, I vomited and it was whitish froth with blood tinge. It was really foamy ( like the soap bubbles in the bath tub) and foul smelling. It was end of that session for the day. I was EXTREMELY exhausted.

ALL VISIONS AND DREAMS I RECEIVED FROM THE LORD SINCE MARCH HAVE BEEN FULFILLED; from the vision about demon X, TO RECURRENT DREAMS ON IDOLATRY AND DEMONS WHICH INHABIT THOSE STATUES.

(Joel 2:28-32 NKJV) "And it shall come to pass afterward That I will pour out My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters shall PROPHESY , Your old men shall dream DREAMS , Your young men shall see VISIONS. {29} And also on My menservants and on My maidservants I will pour out My Spirit in those days. {30} "And I will show wonders in the heavens and in the earth: Blood and fire and pillars of smoke. {31} The sun shall be turned into darkness, And the moon into blood, Before the coming of the great and awesome day of the LORD. {32} And it shall come to pass That whoever calls on the name of the LORD Shall be saved. For in Mount Zion and in Jerusalem there shall be deliverance, As the LORD has said, Among the remnant whom the LORD calls.

DANIEL 2:22 "HE REVEALS DEEP AND MYSTERIOUS THINGS , AND KNOWS WHAT LIES HIDDEN IN DARKNESS, THOUGH HE IS SURROUNDED BY LIGHT..."

I had 2 other similar sessions like this after that. SO MANY PEOPLE WERE INVOLVED. THEY ARE LIVING WITNESSES WHO CAN TESTIFY THAT EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE SPOKEN THUS FAR IS THE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH. In between my manifestations, I would be telling them, “I WISH THE REST OF THE WORLD WAS HERE TO WITNESS THE TRUTH, SO THAT THEY MAY SEE WITH THEIR OWN EYES AND BELIEVE”.

On the last day of prayer, it was in the church with congregation. My deliverance happened in the presence of the congregation. EVERYONE stayed back and prayed. It was an unusual experience for everyone. It’s not everyday one gets to see deliverance. It really opens the eyes of those witnessing to the truth. I kept on manifesting. NOTE: Considering the fact that my deliverance began since March and I already had 3 MAJOR sessions before, there were only few more demons remaining. With each deliverance, many were casted out. Many pastors were involved. The pastor who first made me manifest was away, so someone else took over. The new pastor experienced spiritual attacks at night for interfering in the demons path.

Time was passing by, the congregation and the pastor were praying, but the demons were reluctant to leave. They kept on saying “We will NOT leave this body”. The soul of Adrian Mark belongs to us”. The new pastor seemed to be getting exhausted. He was at his wits end. My hope and faith were failing miserably. I couldn’t go on anymore. In despair, the pastor knelt down and started to pray to God, saying that he doesn’t know what else to do anymore, and asked GOD to take over.

At that time , I knelt down as well. In the midst of my despair, and probably with the last drop of hope, I cried out to GOD one last time. ( NOTE: PREVIOUSLY, I WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO PRAY DURING MY MANIFESTATIONS, THE DEMONS WOULD NOT PERMIT MY TONGUE. EG. When I want to say “This body belongs to Jesus”, THEY will twist it and say “This body DOES NOT belong to Jesus”. )

AS I WAS ON MY KNEES WITH GREAT DESPAIR, SOMETHING HAPPENED. OUT OF NOWHERE, THERE CAME SUDDEN GUSH OF HOPE AND FAITH. GREAT STRENGTH FROM THE LORD FILLED ME. I TOOK FULL CONTROL OF MY BODY AND TONGUE AND I STARTED PRAYING WITH GREAT DEVOTION. I EXCLAIMED “ I REBUKE YOU SATAN, GET OUT OF MY BODY, THIS BODY BELONGS TO CHRIST. I DESCEND DOWN THE FIERY WRATH OF GOD UPON YOU NOW”. As I said that, I fell unto the ground, almost like a convulsion and started screaming and shouting “IT BURNS. IT BURNS..HAVE MERCY ON US SON OF GOD. LET US GO. HAVE MERCY ON US , SON OF GOD”. Moments when it ceases,  I would go on my knees again and pray into the heavens and Ask God to POUR OUT HIS WRATH AND EXECUTE HIS JUDGEMENT. EACH AND EVERY TIME I PRAYED, I WOULD FALL BACK ONTO THE GROUND, SHRIEKING AND SCREAMING “IT BURNS. IT BURNS”. GOD TOOK OVER MY HANDS AND STARTED SLAPPING MY FACE AND PUNCHING MY BODY EVERYWHERE, AS IF HE IS TRYING TO EXPEL SOMETHING OUT OF MY  BODY. I WAS JUST SPEECHLESS, I AM JUST A SINNER AND GOD WHO IS IN HEAVEN, HEARD MY CRIES AND CAME TO RESCUE. WHO AM I THAT I SHOULD MATTER SO MUCH TO YOU LORD? I CANNOT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT EVERY TIME I SAID “ I POUR THE FIERY WRATH OF GOD”, GOD IN HEAVEN WOULD ACTUALLY DO THAT AND THE DEMONS WILL BE BURNING AND SHRIEKING. AND THE DEMONS COULD SEE THE PRESENCE OF GOD , THAT THEY KEPT ON SAYING “ SON OF GOD, HAVE MERCY ON US AND LET US GO”. WHO AM I, THAT YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO MY CRIES LORD? WHAT IS MY WORTH , THAT GOD IN HEAVEN ACTUALLY CARES AND WATCHES OVER ME AND KNOWS WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? WHAT GREAT MANNER OF LOVE?

2 Samuel 22:7-20 NIV In my distress I called to the LORD; I called out to my God. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came to his ears. "The earth trembled and quaked, the foundations of the heavens shook; they trembled because he was angry. Smoke rose from his nostrils; consuming fire came from his mouth, burning coals blazed out of it. He parted the heavens and came down; dark clouds were under his feet. He mounted the cherubim and flew; he soared on the wings of the wind. He made darkness his canopy around him-- the dark rain clouds of the sky. Out of the brightness of his presence bolts of lightning blazed forth. The LORD thundered from heaven; the voice of the Most High resounded. He shot arrows and scattered [the enemies], bolts of lightning and routed them. The valleys of the sea were exposed and the foundations of the earth laid bare at the rebuke of the LORD, at the blast of breath from his nostrils. "He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from my powerful enemy, from my foes, who were too strong for me. They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the LORD was my support. He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me.

The pastor who was guided by spirit of God, kept on counting how many demons left inside me. Every time I descend the WRATH OF GOD, he would say, 3 more, then 2 more and finally the last one. There was another pastor who has been praying for me everyday. During her prayers the previous day, the LORD told her that Adrian will BE DELIVERED today. She came to church that day with the confidence that my deliverance would end today and even woke up early in the morning to cook lunch for me in advance, for she knew THAT THE LORD HAS SPOKEN.I AM NOW DELIVERED, AND WAS DELIVERED BY THE ONE AND ONLY DELIVERER ; JESUS. AMEN & AMEN.

I KNOW THAT SINCE THE DAY I STARTED WRITING ABOUT MY EXPERIENCES AND TELLING OTHERS, MANY WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT IM INSANE, HALLUCINATING AND DELUSIONAL. MY OWN RELATIVES WHO COME FROM HARDCORE CATHOLIC BACKGROUND THINK THAT SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME SINCE I LEFT CATHOLICISM SINCE MARCH. BUT I AM NOT SHOCKED OR SURPRISED EVEN A LITTLE, FOR GOD HAS ALREADY SHOWN ME WHAT WOULD COME TO PASS IN MY DREAM. HE CLEARLY SHOWED ME THE DISBELIEF OF PEOPLE AND MY RELATIVES.I HAVE ALREADY FORESEEN THIS. ( Further description of the dreams and visions are in previous articles).

BUT I DO NOT FEAR ANYTHING, FOR I HAVE BEEN SPEAKING THE TRUTH AND ONLY TRUTH SINCE THE BEGINNING. AND NOW I HAVE EVEN MORE STRENGTH AND COURAGE IN ME TO GO AGAINST ALL ODDS, FOR I KNOW THAT GOD'S HAND IS UPON ME. AMEN

"DO NOT BE AFRAID, BUT SPEAK, AND DO NOT KEEP SILENT; FOR I AM WITH YOU AND NO ONE WILL ATTACK YOU TO HURT YOU" = ACTS 18:9-10

Philippians 2:9-11 NIV Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

(Ezekiel 36:25-28 NKJV) "Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean; I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. {26} "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. {27} "I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will keep My judgments and do them. {28} "Then you shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; you shall be My people, and I will be your God.

Matthew 17 NIV 18Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy, and he was healed from that moment.

Mark 9 NIV 25When Jesus saw that a crowd was running to the scene, he rebuked the evil spirit. "You deaf and mute spirit," he said, "I command you, come out of him and never enter him again."

Luke 4 NIV 41Moreover, demons came out of many people, shouting, "You are the Son of God!" But he rebuked them and would not allow them to speak, because they knew he was the Christ.

 Luke 9 NIV 42Even while the boy was coming, the demon threw him to the ground in a convulsion. But Jesus rebuked the evil spirit, healed the boy and gave him back to his father.

Psalm 97:10 NIV Let those who love the LORD hate evil, for he guards the lives of his faithful ones and delivers them from the hand of the wicked.

Psalm 138:7 NIV Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me.

Psalm 140:7 NIV O GOD the Lord, the strength of my salvation, You have covered my head in the day of battle.

Isaiah 41:10 NIV So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

2 Thessalonians 1:5-7 NIV All this is evidence that God's judgment is right, and as a result you will be counted worthy of the kingdom of God, for which you are suffering. God is just: He will pay back trouble to those who trouble you and give relief to you who are troubled, and to us as well. This will happen when the Lord Jesus is revealed from heaven in blazing fire with his powerful angels.

2 Thessalonians 3:3 NIV But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.

1 John 4:4 NIV You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.

Revelation 20:9-10 NIV They marched across the breadth of the earth and surrounded the camp of God's people, the city he loves. But fire came down from heaven and devoured them. And the devil, who deceived them, was thrown into the lake of burning sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever.

1 JOHN 4:6
“BUT WE BELONG TO GOD, AND THOSE WHO NOW GOD LISTEN TO US. IF THEY DO NOT BELONG TO GOD, THEY DO NOT LISTEN TO US. THAT IS HOW WE KNOW IF SOMEONE HAS THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH OR THE SPIRIT OF DECEPTION”


The Wrath of God : Part 12

20/11/2010

The day of my deliverance was probably the happiest day of my life. I endured torment for 23 years and it was about time that it ended. I couldn’t go on anymore. That was my last straw. I have long surpassed my patience. I came back home feeling exhausted. They said that it was only common to find the body feeling extremely exhausted after such deliverance. I was very new to all these. I didn’t know what to expect. I was totally clueless. The moment after deliverance, when I was on the floor, deep inside my heart I  had a tinge of doubt, “ Is it really over?”. As a matter of fact, when the pastor stopped,  I thought we were taking a break before we continue further, but it was actually the end. I was telling them, I wish I would get a clear sign that everything has ended.

I once read that you cant pray a demon away, you have to specifically cast it out or it will always remain in your body. I had assumed that only Demon X manifested that day. So I was wondering what ever happened to the other demons? Someone offered an explanation saying that I should not assume that only Demon X manifested, it could have been also other demons, and said that I cannot understand how God works. Human minds cant possibly perceive how spiritual things work. As I left the building , I had chest pain ( just like how I used to have ) and I was burping. Someone said, deliverance in an ongoing process, the other demons are leaving you.I was heading back home in the car, my friend called and said “You must be a very lucky person that it just ended in one day”. I coulnt reply anything, because deep inside my heart I had doubts if it was really over. I badly needed assurance. In the past I have met pastors who even prayed and nothing happened. Some said that there was nothing in me when I insisted I had demons. Some said that you cannot possibly have holy spirit and demons coexisting in you. But I refused to believe any of them, for only I knew the torment I went through.

The day  after deliverance, I woke up late, feeling really light. I saw the ray of sun entering my room through the window, and I told myself “ahh..a new beginning..my days of mourning are now over..a new life awaits”. I had such devotion for God that day. I prayed after a very very long time. It was all well. What great joy..what great joy. As I related to my mum on what had happened, she said “ I wish I came to witness what had happened…or at least your dad should have seen it..so he may believe”. I never expected that reply from my mum at all. I was totally surprised. The same evening, I was relating what had happened during deliverance to someone. While talking about it, I had multiple visions of Demon X. But I told myself, I am just imagining it. The following day, I woke up and prayed. It was all fine. But evening came, and the joy just vanished. I felt lonely and empty suddenly. I couldn’t possibly explain why. It was the same time of feeling that I used to have even back then. At about the same moment, I felt extremely drowsy and terribly sleepy. My eyelids felt so heavy. In that period of drowsiness on my bed, before entering into sleep, I vaguely saw vision of other demons, just like how I used to see during my 6 weeks of torment in march. I dismissed the thoughts. I told myself that I am delivered. They told me, that it is common that after deliverance , one will go through a phase of doubts and lies from the demons. So I just thought I was imagining them. I slept off and woke up late. I could barely get up and open my eyes. My eyelids were extremely heavy. It was the same type of drowsiness I used to have before my deliverance. I consoled myself, saying it is just a trick by the demon to make me think that I am not delivered.

I kept on having vision of demons especially  Demon A & Demon B. That day, I kept on having pain at different parts of body followed by burping ( just like how I used to have ). I just ignored that. I kept myself occupied by listening to gospel songs and praying. The next day I woke up. I was taken aback by the fact , I didn’t feel any devotion for God. I didn’t even feel like praying. Notice how the previous days I was filled with joy and had such passion for God. I forced myself to pray. My lips were reading the prayers, but I could barely concentrate. I got tired halfway that I paused every now and then before continuing my prayers. The I just thought, maybe I should try praying in tongues. As I prayed in tongues, I just felt so drowsy and tired, I was yawning every now and then. After one point, I could no longer go on. I just stopped. As much as I tried telling myself that I am delivered, I just couldnt do it anymore. This is not what I expected at all. I went through a tormented wretched life all these while and here I thought after deliverance I would be fine and everything would have ended.

BUT NOW, EVERYTHING LOOKS THE SAME. WHY? ARE THE DEMONS PLAYING  A TRICK INTO MAKING ME BELIEVE THAT I AM NOT DELIVERED OR AM I GENUINELY NOT COMPLETELY DELIVERED? I coulnt take it. I am tired. I am exhausted of everything. I had more than enough. I have no patience or endurance left in me .I called someone and told what was happening and told her that I feel like I am not completely delivered. Even during the conversation , I had visions of demons A & B. The person said that I am delivered and it is just the lie of the enemy and said I needed more faith. Lord, I feel so lost. What is exactly going on? Lord, I really can’t do this anymore. Do not put me into test. Im just a weak human. I was so heartbroken again. Even as I type this, I am having chest pain followed by burping. I don’t know what to think or say anymore…I just feel like dying….Im just one tiny drop away from Giving up...I HAD ENOUGH..My mum called and asked how are you? Just one day ago, with such joy I answered, “Im VERY very fine”. But today, I just said..im ok..I didn’t say anything else. Saying anything else would only cause her to be worried unnecessarily and disrupt her possibly new found belief in the God I am with….I feel like going away somewhere far far away to find peace of mind..Lord will you not grant rest to my weary soul?

Answer me Lord…..

Within 30 minutes of writing this, while lying down on bed, contemplating in sorrow, I got the answer I wanted…I WAS NOT IMAGINING ANYTHING.…THANK YOU LORD…YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE…GOD IS GOOD..GOOD IS GREAT…NOTHING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED IS A COINCIDENCE LORD..IT IS ALL PART OF YOUR PLAN.What great blessing..WHAT GREAT BLESSING TO BE PART OF THIS LORD...WHAT GREAT BLESSING TO RECEIVE THIS KNOWLEDGE LORD....There is only one question left, what do all of these mean? What are you trying to tell me Lord? God has been trying to tell me something..Deep inside my heart I knew, that the whole complicated jigsaw puzzle will be completed soon..

DANIEL 2:22 "HE REVEALS DEEP AND MYSTERIOUS THINGS , AND KNOWS WHAT LIES HIDDEN IN DARKNESS, THOUGH HE IS SURROUNDED BY LIGHT..."

THE SCRIPTURE HAS BEEN FULFILLED..AMEN & AMEN

The Wrath of God : Part 11

17/11/2010
THE GRAND FINALE OF 23 YEARS OF TORMENT AND WRETCHED LIFE. THE day finally came for the divine intervention of God. On the eve ( 16/11/2010) , while I was still functional , towards the night, It happened again, I became very silent, extremely irritable like the previous days. It knew its end has come. Trying its last few stunts. The person who has been appointed by God, who has been there since day 1, praying for me unceasingly, had arranged the meeting with the pastor. Note that all previous attempts to meet the pastor for deliverance had been prevented by various obstacles. Eg. The pastor will be away or something would come up. MULTIPLE OCCASIONS. But we both knew, that this was the final chance. I could not go even another day further. No matter what, WE WILL MEET THE PASTOR AND PUT AND END TO THIS. That morning I woke up late. As I drove to the place, OF ALL THE DAYS, THE ONE WAY ROAD WAS BLOCKED BY A TENT. OF ALL THE DAYS, I TOOK THE WRONG TURNING TWICE. The other person woke up with a swollen hand. OUT OF NOWHERE, the pastor called and said that he had to meet someone else in the hospital urgently. Everything was expected. Purely spiritual. BUT GOD WAS ON OUR SIDE THIS TIME, NO EVIL CAN EVER COME ACROSS HIS WILL. WE reached to the place and met the pastor. Just at the waiting area, there was a large poster which read “EXPECT GREAT THINGS FROM GOD AND ATTEMPT GREAT THINGS FOR GOD”. I didn’t know what to expect. Previously I have met other pastors who never took me seriously and few of them even said I don’t have any demons in me and the other said I don’t need deliverance. BUT I KNEW THAT I HAD SERIOUS PROBLEMS. The ONLY PERSON WHO KEPT ON INSISTING THAT I NEED DELIVERANCE WAS THE PERSON WHO WAS PRAYING FOR ME AND ARRANGED THE MEETING ( THE GOD APPOINTED PERSON ).

 Whatever I have ever written or told others are merely less than 5% of what I have gone through. Some of the things are just too much to handle that even I refused to think about it. So I was talking to the pastor alone, I asked others to leave. For the first time in my life, I spoke about the other things. Even then it was too much to bear, that I told the pastor vaguely, to  him the gist of it. At the end of the day, only 2 person will ever know the entire detail of what I went through : ME & GOD. And it will remain so forever..according to the Will of GOD.

After a long lengthy conversation, we continued with a prayer session, which had 2 parts to it. The first part of it was a session of confessing all the wrongdoings and sins to God. THE MOST FUNDAMENTAL THING ONE HAS TO REMEMBER, IS THAT IT IS NOT THE PASTOR WHO DOES THE DELIVERANCE. BUT IT IS GOD, BY THE POWER OF HOLY SPIRIT , IN THE NAME OF JESUS WHO DOES THE DELIVERANCE. The individuals involved are merely the channels of peace of God. All Glory and honor belongs to God and God alone. THIS IS NOT SOME EXORCISM BY MEDIUMS. THIS IS A DIVINE MOMENT, WHEN GOD IN HEAVEN, WHO HAS SEEN THE LONG SUFFERING OF HIS SON, CAME TO RESCUE HIM FROM THE GRIP OF DARKNESS. ALL MY LIFE I HAVE REFUSED TO MEDDLE WITH ANY MEDIUMS AND WAITED EVER PATIENTLY FOR THIS MOMENT, BECAUSE I KNEW THAT I WAS WITH THE TRUE LIVING GOD AND HE WILL DELIEVER ME, FOR THERE IS NO OTHER NAME GREATER THAN HIS. WHILE OTHER PEOPLE LIVE BY FAITH, HOW CAN I POSSIBLY NOT BELIEVE IN THE GOD WHO CAME DOWN TO SEE SUCH A GREAT SINNER LIKE ME TWICE AND WHO HAS SHOWERED SUCH GREAT GOODNESS ON AN UNDESERVING PERSON LIKE ME?

ONE THING I NEED TO SAY IS THAT, DESPITE THE FACT THAT I BEGGED FOR TIME FOR MY GOD TO PROVE HIS GREATNESS THIS WEDNESDAY, CONSIDERING PEOPLE WERE ALREADY MOCKING HIM AND THERE WERE OBJECTS FROM THE MEDIUMS WAITING FOR ME TO USE. Like I have said before, I don’t doubt God’s ability, but I was worried about his timing. Which meant, even if nothing ever happened on Wednesday, THAT DOES NOT MEAN WHATEVER GOODNESS GOD HAS DONE FOR ME IN MY LIFE, AND EVERYTHING I HAVE GONE THROUGH ARE FALSE. In my last phone call before I went to meet the pastor, someone ( who was clearly concerned about me ) said, “Adrian, you must assure me that if whatever you are going for today does not work, you must use the object the medium has made for you”. I didn’t reply the person anything. The TRUTH IS, I WAS WILLING TO SUFFER AND DIE FOR MY GOD. Imagine, a great sinner like me, who has only brought disappointment and sorrows to god, and yet he has been so gracious and done only good things in my life. I didn’t even feel upset that my life was brought to ruin by enemy, but what really broke my heart was the fact that I was breaking the heart of God who has been so good to me. People mock and say, why is then your god not capable of saving you and has let you suffer? What they FAILED TO KNOW IS THAT THE VERY FACT THAT I AM STILL ALIVE, WAS BECAUSE OF GOD.

Now , after the first part of the prayer session ( confession of all sins ) was over. We went into the second part, in which the pastor started praying. Suddenly, I started laughing. LAUGHING UNCONTROLLABLY. IT WASN’T ME. PASTOR WAS PRAYING AND KEPT ON SAYING “BLOOD OF CHIRST”

.THE ONE AND ONLY WEAPON IN THE DELIVERANCE WERE 3 WORDS “BLOOD OF CHRIST”. WHATEVER WAS IN ME TOOK OVER MY BODY AND STARTED MANIFESTING. I WAS AWARE OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING, BUT HAD NO CONTROL OVER MY BODY OR ACTIONS. “IT” WAS LAUGHING AND LAUGHING AND MOCKING GOD. THE LAUGHTER WAS SO LOUD THAT THE SOUND PENETRATED BEYOND THE DOORS. AFTER A LENGTHY DURATION OF INSULTING LAUGHTER, IT STARTED SCREAMING. MORE LIKE WAILING.SCREAMING WAS EXTREMELY LOUD AND INTENSE. WENT UP TO A PITCH WHICH WAS IMPOSSIBLE  FOR ME TO EMULATE ON NORMAL DAYS. I WHO WAS AWARE, FELT EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED AND I KNEW THAT I COULDN’T SCREAM ANYMORE AND WAS HOPING IT WOULD STOP, BUT IT KEPT ON SCREAMING AND SCREAMING. IT GOT VIOLENT, THERE WERE TWO OTHER PERSON WHO RESTRAINED ME FROM THE BACK. IM NOT SURE HOW MANY DEMONS I HAD IN ME, BUT THE “LARGEST OF ALL” MANIFESTED. MOMENT OF TRUTH = DEMON X. DEMON X WAS INSIDE ME. IT MADE THE CLASSICAL FACE THAT CHARACTERIZES ITS APPERANCE. STARTED SCREAMING AND SHOUTING. WAS SO RELUCTANT TO LEAVE ME.

ALTHOUGH I WATCHED MY BODY BEING USED BY THE DEMON, I WAS THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON EARTH WHEN IT STARTED TO MANIFEST. IT WAS THE ULTIMATE MOMENT THAT PROVED I WAS NOT INSANE, AND I WAS SPEAKING THE TRUTH FROM THE BEGINNING. EVERY BIT OF IT. IT ALSO PROVED THAT ALL THE MEDIUMS CONSULTED BY OTHERS PERTAINING TO ME WERE WRONG. ALL DARK ARTS AND MEDIUMS ARE DEEPLY RELATED. THAT EXPLAINS WHY THEY COULD ONLY DESCRIBE IN GREAT DETAILSEM  ABOUT THE ABNORMAL THINGS I WENT THROUGH BUT THEY WERE ABSOLUTELY CLUELESS ABOUT GOD RELATED PHENOMENA THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE ( eg. Bright light, tongues etc ). AND ALL OF THEM SAID THAT IT WAS  SOME SOUL OF A DEAD PERSON . BUT I FIRMLY BELIEVED , THAT GHOSTS ARE DEMONS PRETENDING TO BE HUMAN SOULS. TRUE ENOUGH, IT WAS NOT SOME DEAD PERSON SOUL TORMENTING ME, THEY WERE ALL DEMONS. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN GREAT ENLIGHTENMENT FOR A PERSON TO WITNESS WHAT HAPPENING.FOR THERE ARE THINGS IN LIFE THAT IS DIFFICULT FOR ONE TO UNDERSTAND OR BELIEVE UNTIL HE/SHE WITNESSES IT WITH OWN EYES.

THE TRUTH MUST ALWAYS PREVAIL NO MATTER WHAT. AND THERE IS ONLY ONE TRUTH. THERE IS ONLY ONE NAME ABOVE ALL. THE NAME EVERY KNEE SHOULD BEND, EVERY DEMON WILL FLEE..AND THAT NAME IS JESUS. DEMON X IS NOT EVEN A MATCH FOR THE GOD WHO WAS WITH ME. IT WAS AN EASY PIECE OF CAKE. THERE CAME MY GOD LIKE A MIGHTY WARRIOR AND SAVED HIS SON. THE ENEMY WAS DEFEATED. MY ONLY REGRET WAS I DIDN’T TAKE A RECORDING OF THE ENTIRE THING. IT WAS ALL OVER..TRUTH HAS PREVAILED…YOU HAVE MADE EVERY TORMENT THAT I WENT THROUGH WORTHWHILE…AS I LEFT THE BUILDING, I SAW THE POSTER ONCE AGAIN “EXPECT GREAT THINGS FROM GOD, AND ATTEMPT GREAT THINGS FOR GOD”…AND I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, “LORD, YOU HAVE DONE FAR BEYOND THAN I EXPECTED”..THANK YOU, JESUS..

A NEW BEGINNING AWAITS…. AMEN.

The Wrath of God : Part 10

( TWO PARTS 9TH & 15TH NOVEMBER 2010 )

9 NOVEMBER 2010

It has been quite some time since I last wrote. I once read, that your relationship with god is directly reflected by the number and frequency of your testimonies. Clearly my relationship with God has been quite distant recently. I realized when one falls from god, he doesn’t fall immediately in a split second , rather he slips away one step a day and one day he realizes that he has gone far far away from God.

“It is not that my arms are too weak to save you, rather it is your sins that has torn us apart.”

I cant remember the last time I prayed with devotion. I remember postponing my prayer session one day, which became two days and then a week and I finally lost count. I am ashamed of what I have become. I get scared to pray these days, thinking that God is very displeased with me. Perhaps he wont even listen to my prayers. Yes, father, forgive me, I have sinned. With what sincerity do I tender this favour for forgiveness? It almost feels worse than a hypocrite, knowing that there is no assurance that I will not repeat the same mistake again. How will I even face you? I know that you are everwilling to forgive, but the question remains in my heart, do I even deserve such forgiveess? Suddenly the idea of going to hell doesn’t look that terrifying for I realize , that is the just punishment for all that I have done. It sounds fair to me..Asking forgiveness again and again with repentance that last merely a day seems futile,, as if I have taken my god for granted. I am sorry for being such a disappointment.

On my birthday, I went through another bout of depression. Despite the fact my parents insisted me to stay home for my birthday, I left. I wanted to be alone. There I was lying down on bed, reminiscing every bit of my life for the last 23 years..All moments of my life flashed before, the happy days and the tragic ones. Clearly, it appeared to me that my life was like an ocean of sorrows dotted with scarce happy moments. At that moment I couldn’t help but to wonder, why was I even made? What is my purpose here? Clearly I have brought great disappointment to God. This is not who I was meant to be. I couldn’t even find one good reason to live. Why do I even need to wake up tomorrow morning? What is it that I look forward for? Is there anything in life to anticipate? I felt so alone, empty, lonely and naked.

Its funny that i fake a smile and wear a happy mask in front of others. Everyone thinks that I am this cheerful person, but I am not. Im really  tired. Im exhausted..how long more to go lord? The funny part is that, even as I write this, I cant bring myself to pray. Where is my faith? I need to know that God still loves me. I need to know that he is still with me. I  don’t even have the bare minimum of faith to pray and believe that God will hear the prayers of such a sinner. Have you given up on me?
Its funny, when my grandmother would call and say, “Adrian , please pray for me..pray that my ailments will be taken away”. I would think to myself with such great despair, ‘ How can I pray for you, when I don’t even have the strength to pray for myself”. My house in Alor Setar was flooded last Thursday. I am yet to see the extent of damage. Thank God, that I applied for my elective posting in Klang, that  have brought my most essential books and things here. I cant imagine seeing them soaked in alor setar. When I told my mum that the house in alor setar is flooded, the first thing she said, “Don’t worry, just pray and ask God. Everything will be fine”. She said that not once, but multiple times. As a matter of fact, she says that everytime we talk about the flood. Can you imagine how I feel? I feel like killing myself. What great guilt. I feel as if I have lost the rights to ask god for anything. How can I ever face God again? Do I even dare to ask him for anything? Or even if I do ask, will my words fall unto ground? I am a disgrace to your name.  What great despair? What great despair? Save me from this darkness Lord, before I perish any further..

15 NOVEMBER 2010

My depression improved gradually over the few days. As a matter of fact, you can see the huge difference between 9th and 15th november. Such pathological depression which was entirely unexplicable.

Later that week, It was a rare occasion, when I had gathered with a group of people I barely knew. We were talking and talking, and one topic lead to another, and finally we were talking about me. Person A is nonbeliever, but has spiritual abilities, just like a medium ( WHICH I DIDNT KNOW AT ALL ). As  I started telling about my problems, the person A completed every sentence I spoke. He even continued telling MY STORY WITH SUCH GREAT DETAIL. I WAS REALLY TAKEN ABACK AND OVERWHELMED. FOR ONCE, SOMEONE KNEW THAT I WAS NOT INSANE AND I WAS SPEAKING THE TRUTH. Eg. I said “ that evening I really started feeling weird” and he continues “ it was about 6 pm actually” and I will be like “YES YES EXACTLY”.

WHAT REALLY MADE ME OVERWHELM WAS THE PART WHEN HE SAID “ On selected days, you will be there sitting, doing your work, and evening about 6 sumtin onwards SOMETHING WILL TAKE OVER YOU AND WILL MAKE YOU DO WHATEVER IT WANTS”.

AT THAT POINT I COULDN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE..CAN YOU IMAGINE, WHILE THE REST  OF THE WORLD THOUGHT I WAS INSANE , DELUSIONAL AND HALLUCINATING, THERE COMES THIS MAN WHO SAID EVERYTHING I WAS GOING THROUGH. ALL MY FEVER, ALL MY DEPRESSION AND THE THINGS EVER HAPPENED WERE ALL SPIRITUAL.
THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS, GOD HAS PROHIBITED ME FROM SEEKING ANY MEDIUM. UNFORTUNATELY I WAS IN SUCH AN INEVITABLE CIRCUMSTANCE. I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW THAT PERSON WAS A MEDIUM TO START OFF..
Even for the past few days, while reading newspaper, I refrained myself from even reading the zodiac signs. UNFORTUNATELY, ON THAT DAY, person B, asked me to stretch my hand. I thought he wanted to explain something. But he read my palms. I was put in in such a COMPLICATED CIRCUMSTANCE THAT I WAS HELPLESS…
Here is the collective & corroborative version of their story about me: ( from various people whom I have never consulted, but have been consulted by people close to me)

Apparently, years ago ( the same year my abnormality  started when I was in year 2 ), I was coming back from class after having my dinner. That evening was not any ordinary day. Apparently there was a house near mine , which had demonic possession and caused a wreck. The owner called in medium, and decided to cast the demon out of the house. Now the ritual took place the same time I was coming home. Apparently, AT THE EXACT MOMENT THE DEMON WAS BEING CASTED AWAY FROM THE HOUSE, I WAS CROSSING THE SAME POINT AND WE “COLLIDED”. AND THAT DEMON HAS BEEN FOLLOWING ME EVER SINCE AND ACCOUNTS FOR MOST OF MY PROBLEM. IN OTHER WORDS I WAS AT THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME.  I don’t believe in coincidence.

As much as I believe that when a person dies, his or her soul will be out of earth, waiting for the day of judgement. Hence, the soul is never around on earth. SO what s EXACTLY A GHOST?? IT IS NOT THE SOUL OF THE DEAD PERSON..RATHER A GHOST IS A DEMON WHICH TAKES THE FORM OF A HUMAN , WHICH SUCCESSFULLY DECEIVES EVERYONE , MAKING THEM BELIEVE THAT IT IS ACTUALLY THE SOUL OF THE DEAD PERSON.
BACK TO THE STORY, THESE MEDIUMS  PRETTY  MUCH TELL THE SAME VERSION . Apparently the demon which was being casted  out of the house, which I HAVE HIT ACCIDENTALLY is the soul of a dead person , a female who died in her twenties, likely in a car crash.

So this particular demon has been following me ever since..he described everything  I was going throught. The countless time I was feverish with all my energy gone, but the thermometer would show normal temperature. The times I felt so possessed I did things I would never do  , the days I would feel very depressed and days I would  feel angry and highly irritable for no reason..All the time when I was PREVENTED FROM PRAYING, THE TIMES WHEN EVERYTIME I TRY TO PRAY, ALL MY ENERGY WILL BE ZAPPED AWAY AND I WILL SLEEP OFF….ETC  ETC


What was even more shocking was when this man who doesn’t even know me said “You used to be vegetarian before. But at that time, you will always have cravings to eat meat particularly on selected days”

THAT WAS EXTREMELY TRUE..I USED TO BE VEGETARIAN FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS. NO MATTER WHAT , THERE WILL BE DAYS I WILL HAVE THE STRONG DESIRE TO EAT MEAT, HENCE AT ONE POINT I GOT SO DESPERATE, THAT I TOLD MYSELF THAT I WILL ALLOCATE AT LEAST 3 DAYS PER YEAR TO EAT MEAT. AND I WILL GO AND EAT KFC.
EVER SINCE I CAME TO ALOR SETAR, I WAS UNABLE TO BE VEGETARIAN DUE TO THE LACK OF VEGETARIAN FOOD HERE. I NOTICED THAT I HAD MASSIVE CRAVING TO EAT CHICKEN, THOUGH I OFTEN MANAGE TO CONTROL MYSELF. EVERY TIME I GO TO THE SUPERMARKET, I GET SO TEMPTED TO BUY AND EAT THE CHICKEN. ONCE I EVEN BOUGHT HALF A ROASTED CHICKEN AND ATE. ON ANOTHER OCCASION, DESPITE THE FACT I ALREADY HAD MY DINNER AND IT WAS ALREADY 12 AM SUMTING, I HAD SUDDEN CRAVING TO EAT KFC , THAT I DROVE AROUND TO FIND 24 HOUR KFC OUTLET AND I ATE. IT WAS A FACT TO ME  THAT I HAVE SUFFERED FROM BINGE EATING DISORDER FOR A VERY LONG TIME. ITS JUST THAT I HAVE NEVER CONSIDERED A SPIRITUAL CAUSE FOR IT ALL THESE WHILE. SUCH AN EYE OPENER.




This person said that when he saw my face in the morning, he knew something was wrong. Another person said that he was aware that I had problems and there was something bothering my life. This person also claims to have spiritual abilities. This person said that, he even attempted to cast the demon away without my knowledge once. He said he really felt the presence of the demon and he was filled with intense fear. He even continued to say that, while he wanted to make an attempt to cast  away , the feeling of inexplicable fear was so intense that he asked his other friend to accompany him. Apparently this other friend “SAW SOMETHING THAT HE SHOULD NOT SEE” , freaked out and walked away. I was sleeping when all these happened. Imagine “SOMETHING” NEAR ME WHEN IM SLEEPING?? The attempt to exorcise the demon failed. Apparently this incident happened long ago. And I only got to know that day.
Though I know that INDIRECTLY I HAVE CONSULTED MEDIUMS ( IN A SUCH AN INEVITABLE CIRCUMSTANCE, WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING THAT THEY WERE ONE ), I was glad in a way to know there are people out there who know the truth and know that I am not insane.

It was just too much to take, but I was in dire pursuit for the truth. I NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH. So I told them about GOD visiting me in my room twice ( bright light incident ) and how I got my tongues and my visions and dreams. Somehow, when I was telling these things, they were quiet unaware about it ( unlike the previous things, which they could actually anticipate what I was going to say ). They made NO REMARKS about the God incident…WHY? WHY DO THEY ONLY KNOW  ( IN GREAT DETAILS ) OF ALL THE ABNORMAL THINGS, BUT KNEW NOTHING ABOUT GOD RELATED PHENOMENA THAT HAPPENED TO ME? A BIG PIECE OF TRUTH IS MISSING..WHAT IS THE TRUTH? Where does DEMON X , fit into this story? How about the other demons i saw? What was obvious to me, there is a MULTITUDE OF DEMONS, WORKING TOGETHER TO DESTROY ME, THEY ARE DOING ALL THEY CAN TO PREVENT ME FROM KNOWING WHO I REALLY AM IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD..

The following day though I woke up feeling better, suddenly another bout of intense unexplicable depression took over me. Just like the previous days. I just kept to myself. It was one of those highly irritable days for no reason. I was scared to speak anything. The enemy usually would want me to speak vulgarity about god. It will really stir my mind with all its cheap ideas. Eg. There are days it will stir the wrath in me for NO REASON , THAT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL LIKE CURSING GOD OR EVEN SPITTING AT HIM OR THROWING THE BIBLE. I even remember there was  a day in the past, I felt like that , so I kept to myself , being very quit. UNFORTUNATELY, the person who was praying for me was there with me. And earlier that morning, he had a vision of a lion attacking him, but he never told me about it.
So he was talking to me, and I who was in an intense state, suddenly jumped and attacked him. It was a sudden outburst of anger and such great strength. When I got back to my sense few seconds later, I looked at my hands, and they were clasped like the lion’s paw. And it FULFILLED THE VISION HE HAD THAT MORNING.

So, as I was feeling the same way that day I kept myself in solitude. But at night, I called person Z ( is a person who has been praying for me since the beginning ), I was venting out my emotions and problems, telling her about my involuntary encounter with mediums and SUDDENLY I WAS FILLED WITH RAGE, THAT I SPOKE VULGARITY ABOUT GOD. MOMENTS LATER,  I GOT BACK TO MYSELF. ALL MY DEPRESSION , ANGER AND IRRITABILITY COMPLETELY VANISHED. THE ENEMY HAS  ACHIEVED WHAT IT WANTED FOR THAT DAY, IT HAD MADE ME SPEAK VULGARITY ABOUT GOD…
The mediums are offering “solution” to my “problems”. They say they can end it easily. As a matter of fact the “objects” to be used are there already available, waiting for me to succumb. BUT I HAVE REFUSED. I HAVE SAID THAT I NEED TIME. I NEED TIME FOR MY GOD.

MY GOD HAS BECOME A SUBJECT OF MOCKERY BY PEOPLE, THEY SAY “YOUR GOD HAS CLEARLY FAILED YOU..WHY IS IT THAT YOUR GOD HAS LET YOU TO SUFFER? WHY IS IT THAT HE IS NOT CAPABLE OF SOLVING YOUR PROBLEMS..I THINKK YOU ARE PRAYING TO THE WRONG GOD…YOU NEED TO BE WISE AND CHOOSE THE SOLUTION ADRIAN…”
It was apparent to me, that my dream few months ago, In which I was participating in a ritual of animal sacrifice ( symbolic ) . I was convinced by them, that by participating in it, all my problems will be ended. While preparing to that ritual IN MY DREAM, I RECEIVED A VISION FROM GOD, SHOWING ME THAT THE MOMENT I PARTICIPATE IN THE RITUAL, I AM NOT ENDING MY PROBLEMS BUT I WILL BE OFFICALLY OPENING THE PORTAL OF DARKNESS INTO MY LIFE..MY DREAM FROM GOD HAS BEEN FULFILLED..

ONE THING FOR SURE, THIS IS THE SEASON FINALE OF MY LIFE DRAMA..i cant go on like this anymore..i have long surpassed my limits..…THE TRUTH IS VERY NEAR…SOON…May God be with me…

Awaiting divine intervention....

The Wrath of God : Part 9

19/10/2010

Few days ago, I was talking to my housemate who is a free thinker. We were talking about various things from food , health and one topic lead to another and somehow it reached on religion. We were talking about it and as I was talking about God,  I felt extremely uneasy. I had goosebumps ALL over my body. Usually happens when something spiritual is going on. It was really persistent throughout my conversation about God. Until at one point, I just couldn’t take it, and so I told him, that I have been feeling very uneasy from just now and even had goosebumps. I explained “I know that you might think that I sound crazy, but usually I get this when there is something “abnormal” going on and if there seems to be a spiritual attack I will even start burping”. THE VERY MOMENT I SAID THAT, I STARTED BURPING. I was amazed myself with what was happening. BUT THERE STORY GETS EVEN BETTER. My  housemate who is not a believer, said THAT HE HAS BEEN HAVING GOOSEBUMPS AND A WEIRD FEELING AT THE SAME TIME I STARTED HAVING THEM. HE SAID THAT HE FEELS THAT RARELY, WHEN SOMETHING IS “ABNORMAL”. He even said that the goosebumps were SO BAD, THAT HE COULD  EVEN FEEL IT ON THE SCALP OF HIS HEAD.

POINT HERE IS THAT, many might have thought that im having delusion of religion or even hallucination. This time God has given a very solid evidence. If he was another believer, then one may accuse of bias. But this man is not even a believer and yet he felt the presence of something.
It is a common phenomenon, when even a nonbeliever would be able so feel the presence of an abnormal thing. Usually one tends to feel cold, chills or commonly goosebumps. I honestly have no idea on “what” was there with us that day. It was quite unusual for I have not really had much spiritual problems in this house. Even he said that this was the first time he felt like that in this house. The significance of that event, is yet to be known.

The same night, I who was clearly anxious and partially excited ( was too good to be true) chatted with my friend whom I have shared all the previous events. As I was relating to him on what just happened, once again I had intense goosebumps. So we just decided that we should stop talking about it and call it a day.

This is not the first time I have encountered such phenomenon. Previously, in my sungai petani house, 3 of us ( me, my friend and my housemate were downstairs talking about what had happened to me and all the spiritual attacks. All 3 of us have received the baptism of the holy spirit, hence spiritually sensitized. While we were talking about it, ALL 3 OF US FELT INTENSE GOOSEBUMPS and my friend even had pain in the arm. ALL 3 OF US , INDIVIDUALLY KNEW THAT  SOMETHING ELSE WAS THERE WITH US. The next second I fell into sudden onset of high fever and my energy was zapped.

For the past few days I have not been feeling really well. I Felt feverish but the thermometer seems to be normal. Once upon a time, I used to think that everything was medical unless proven otherwise, but nowadays, EVERYTHING IS SPIRITUAL UNLESS PROVEN OTHERWISE.
Im feeling much better now. I have not been really praying much recently. Was bit occupied and felt guilty. So the previous day, I sat down to pray, I would have prayed only about 30 seconds in tongues and the next moment SUDDENLY  I felt EXTREMELY DROWSY and slept off just like that. This has happened multiple times in the past during my deliverance. I would be normal, the moment I sit down to pray, all my energy will be taken away, and within a minute I’ll get severely drowsy and sleep off.

Yesterday night, I felt extremely irritable for unknown reason. Once again, this is not the first time this has happened. Countless times in the past, I have felt really irritable for reasons I cant explain. While my friend will be there, I’ll just keep very quiet for I know that I’ll just turn into a lion if I start to talk or entertain him. It’s almost like im an active mine when I get irritable. It is better for me to keep myself away from anyone.
IN CONLUSION, THE PRESENCE OF THE DEMON WHILE TALKING TO MY HOUSEMATE, MY LETHARGY AND INABILITY TO PRAY AND THE IRRITABILITY ALL POINT TO ONLY ONE DIAGNOSIS>>>> SPIRITUAL WARFARE..The only question here is that, why again after so long? Is someone trying dark arts AGAIN!?!?!

The truth is yet to be known…soon..very soon…

Like i have said in the past, the greatest trick the devil has ever pulled is convincing mankind that demons dont exist.

MATTHEW 11:15 : "ANYONE WITH EARS TO HEAR SHOULD LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND!" Amen

The Wrath of God : Part 8

Yesterday night about 3 am in the morning, I was lying down on my bed, and just like that it occurred to me :

1 Corinthians 11:14-16 “ Isnt it obvious that it’s disgraceful for a man to have long hair?...But if anyone wants to argue about this, I simply say that we have no other custom than this, and neither do God’s other churches”

All idolatrous churches  portray  “Jesus” as a man with long hair. Was Jesus then a disgraceful man or are they worshipping the image OF SOMEONE ELSE?

The ANTICHRIST  is the wolf is sheep’s disguise. The SO CALLED POTRAIT OF JESUS IS THE IMAGE OF THE ANTICHRIST, FALSELY WORSHIPPED TO LEAD THE WORLD ASTRAY.

As this thought came to me, I felt extremely uneasy, I had persistent goosebumps and chills and sudden feeling of fear which I couldn’t explain.

That pretty much explains why in my previous dreams, the statue of “jesus” came alive with demonic manifestation. I even remember seeing a full life size scale statue of jesus alive in my dream. It was seriously scary.

Of all the revelations I have received in the past, This one  is perhaps the scariest and the darkest one.

THIS MEANS, EACH HOUSE HAS VENERATED THE IMAGE OF THE ANTICHRIST, LIT CANDLES, BOWED DOWN AND WORSHIPED HIM.
THIS IS FAR WORSE THAN IDOLATRY.

MY GOD, WHAT GREAT DARKNESS HAS BEFALLEN US? SUCH GREAT EVIL IS UPON US..SOON HE WILL COME AND LEAD EVERYONE INTO DESTRUCTION.

IMAGINE THIS, NOW THAT FOR AGES, PEOPLE HAVE BEEN DECEIVED TO BELIEVE THAT THE MAN WEARING THE ROBE WITH LONG HAIR IS JESUS WHEN HE IS NOT, NOT , NOT JESUS..RATHER HE IS THE ANTICHRIST.

SUPPOSE ONE DAY, THE ANTICHRIST APPEARS WEARING A ROBE AND WITH LONG HAIR, ONE WOULD NOT EVEN PAUSE TO THINK FOR A SECOND IF THAT IS JESUS, RATHER THEY WILL BE ON THEIR KNEES WORSHIPPING HIM..

IF ANYONE TELLS YOU THAT THEY HAVE SEEN A MAN WITH ROBES, BEARD AND LONG HAIR WHO LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE THE STATUES AND PICTURES,, BEWARE, FOR HE HAS BEEN DECEIVED BY THE SPIRIT OF THE ANTICHRIST.

WHAT GREAT SORROW..WHAT GREAT SORROW..THERE IS A MAN IN SIBERIA RIGHT NOW, WHO CLAIMS HIMSELF TO BE JESUS, AND HE WEARS A ROBE AND HAS LONG HAIR..AND THOUSANDS OF FOOLISH PEOPLE ARE WORSHIPING HIM NOW AS YOU READ THIS SENTENCE.

Matthew 24:4 : Jesus told them “ Don’t let anyone mislead you, for many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I AM THE MESSIAH’. THEY WILL DECEIVE MANY”

MATTHEW 24: 23 THEN IF SOMEONE TELLS YOU, ‘LOOK, HERE IS THE MESSIAH’ OR ‘THERE HE IS’, DON’T BELIEVE IT. FOR FALSE MESSIAH OR PROPHETS WILL RISE UP AND PERFORM GREAT SIGNS AND WONDERS SO AS TO DECEIVE, IF POSSIBLE, EVEN GOD’S CHOSEN ONES. SEE I HAVE WARNED YOU ABOUT THIS AHEAD OF TIME.

SO IF SOMEONE TELLS YOU, ‘LOOK THE MESSIAH IS OUT IN THE DESERT, DON’T BOTHER TO GO AND LOOK. OR ‘LOOK HE IS HIDING THERE’, DON’T BELIEVE IT!

FOR AS THE LIGHTNING FLASHES IN THE EAST AND SHINES TO THE WEST, SO IT WILL BE WHEN THE SON OF MAN COMES.
JUST AS THE GATHERING OF VULTURES SHOWS THERE IS A CARCASS NEARBY, SO THESE SIGNS INDICATE THAT THE END IS NEAR.

REVELATION 13:
“..AND ALL THE PEOPLE WHO BELONG TO THIS WORLD WORSHIPED THE BEAST…HE DECEIVED ALL PEOPLE WHO BELONG TO THIS WORLD..HE ORDERED THE PEOPLE TO MAKE A GREAT STATUE OF THE FIRST BEAST..HE WAS THEN PERMITTED TO GIVE LIFE TO THIS STATUE SO THAT IT COULD SPEAK..THEN THE STATUE OF THE BEAST COMMANDED THAT ANYONE REFUSING TO WORSHIP IT MUST DIE…HIS NUMBER IS 666…”

1 JOHN 4: 3
“..BUT IF SOMEONE CLAIMS TO BE A PROPHET AND DOES NOT ACKNOWLEDGE THE TRUTH ABOUT JESUS, THAT PERSON IS NOT FROM GOD.SUCH A PERSON HAS THE SPIRIT OF THE ANTICHRIST, WHICH YOU HEARD IS COMING INTO THE WORLD AND INDEED IS ALREADY HERE..”

Do you still remember how years ago, the ‘Jesus” statue in my house , came in my dream and asked me to pray to it every night at 12 am?
ITS TIME TO WAKE UP AND SEE THE TRUTH..

JOHN 9: 39 : Then Jesus told him.” I ENTERED THIS WORLD TO RENDER JUDGEMENT – TO GIVE SIGHT TO THE BLIND AND TO SHOW THOSE WHO THINK THEY SEE THAT THEY ARE BLIND.”

Some Pharisees who were standing nearby heard him and asked ( JUST LIKE SOME OF YOU OUT  THERE WHO REFUSE TO SEE THE TRUTH ) “ ARE YOU SAYING THAT WE’RE BLIND?”

“IF YOU WERE BLIND, YOU WOULDN’T BE GUILTY,” JESUS REPLIED. “BUT YOU ( YES YOU ) REMAIN GUILTY BECAUSE YOU CLAIM YOU CAN SEE”

MATTHEW 11:15 : "ANYONE WITH EARS TO HEAR SHOULD LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND!"

1 JOHN 4:6
“BUT WE BELONG TO GOD, AND THOSE WHO NOW GOD LISTEN TO US. IF THEY DO NOT BELONG TO GOD, THEY DO NOT LISTEN TO US. THAT IS HOW WE KNOW IF SOMEONE HAS THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH OR THE SPIRIT OF DECEPTION”

 AMEN & AMEN

Is this the REAL JESUS OR THE ANTICHRIST? Inserted is a picture of Cesare Borgia..Dont you think he too looks like "Your Jesus"? Do not be fooled..

The Wrath of God : Part 7

Aunty: What's your name?
Me: Adrian
Aunty: oh, you are catholic is it?

Me: NOO, im just an ordinary christian...
Aunty: Everything same only
Me: .......

here's a biblical analogy of the same situation:
Aunty: What's your name?
Me:Adrian
Aunty:Oh, you are following the spirit of antichrist is it?
Me:NOO, im a follower of christ...
Aunty: eveything same only
Me:...(*yes lies are same as truth, if that is what you mean*)

YESTERDAY:
Me: There are so many protestant churches in this row, what;s the difference between this church and the next one?
Mrs.X : oh, hahaha..SAME FATHER, but differen brothers..hahaha
Me: haha, good one..how about catholic church?
Mrs.X: O...h, that one not even from the same family..hahaa


YESTERDAY:
Me: Sir, i really dont understand..i showed the catholic people the verses from the bible speaking against idolatry. They too saw with their eyes, but i dont know why, they refuse to believe even after seeing the bible
Servant of God: hahaha...what to do? They are just too blind to see the truth..

My mum: adrian, i have my own believes..im not stopping your believes.i wish you would respect mine

ROMANS 8:15
"SO YOU HAVE NOT RECEIVED A SPIRIT THAT MAKES YOU FEARFUL SLAVES. INSTEAD YOU RECEIVED GOD'S SPIRIT WHEN HE ADOPTED YOU AS HIS OWN CHILDREN. NOW WE CALL HIM "ABBA, FATHER". For His spirit joins with our spirit to affirm that we are God's children. And since we are his children, we are his heirs..

Me:....i was thinking to myself: excuse me, im not talking about other religions..im talking about CHRISTIANITY..it has nothing to do with respecting what you believe..YO...U ARE CORRUPTING THE TEACHINGS AND THE WAY OF MY FATHER..IF YOU WANT TO LIVE IN YOUR SINFUL CORRUPT AND PERVERTED PRACTICES, PLEASE CALL YOURSELF SOMETHING ELSE, AND DONT CALL YOURSELF A CHRISTIAN, BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT A CHRISTIAN..YOU DONT FOLLOW A SHIT FROM THE BIBLE..YOU TREAT THE PAGES OF THE BIBLE LIKE YOUR TOILET PAPER..AND HERE YOU COME AND TELL ME THAT YOU BELIEVE IN MY CHRIST AND MY GOD!?!! SHAME OF MY FLESH..DEPART FROM ME..YOU EVILDOERS..YOU WERE NEVER MEANT TO DO THE WILL OF MY FATHER...IF YOU ARE A SNAKE, HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT YOU BELONG TO MY FAMILY ? ARE YOU SAYING THAT MY FATHER LOOKS LIKE THE SERPENT YOU WORSHIP?!!

.This is exactly like how jesus got angry when he saw people trading things and animals and all sinful things in the temple of god that he went and turned the tables upside down and chased away the animals...</span>


This is what the LORD says to YOU: ISAIAH 57:3
"BUT you- come here, you witches children, you offspring of adulterers and PROSTITUTES! whom do you mock. making faces and sticking out your tongues? You children of sinners and liars! You worsh...ip idols with great passion..They, not I , are your inheritance. Do you think all this makes me happy? You have comitted adultery on every high mountain. There you have worshipped idols and have been unfaithful to me.
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THIS IS WHAT THE LORD SAYS TO YOU, WHO PUT IMAGES OF "SO called St.michael and your doors and "so called divine mercy" in your homes: ISAIAH 57:8

"YOU HAVE PUT PAGAN SYMBOLS ON YOUR DOORPOSTS AND BEHIND YOUR DOORS..YOU have left me and climb...ed into bed with these detestable gods. You have comitted yourselves to them. You love to look at their naked bodies.

THIS IS WHAT THE LORD SAYS TO YOU, WHO CALLS HIMSELF A CHRISTIAN AND CONSULTS MEDIUMS : ISAIAH 57:9

"You have traveled far, even into the WORLD OF THE DEAD, to find new gods to love. You grew weary in your search, but you never gave up. Desi...re gave you renewed strength, and you did not grow weary. Ae you afraid of these idols? Do they terrify you? Is that why you have lied to me and FORGOTTEN ME AND MY WORDS?

THIS IS WHAT THE LORD SAYS TO YOU, ALL YOU WHO CALL YOURSELVES A CHRISTIAN AND BATHES IN THE FILTH OF IDOLATRY: ISAIAH 57:11

"IS IT BECAUSE OF MY LONG SILENCE THAT YOU NO LONGER FEAR ME?NOW I WILL EXPOSE YOUR SO-CALLED GOOD DEEDS. NONE OF TH...EM WILL HELP YOU. LETS SEE IF YOUR IDOLS CAN SAVE YOU, WHEN YOU CRY TO THEM FOR HELP. Why, a puff of wind can knock them down! If you just breathe on them, they fall over!
THIS IS WHAT THE LORD SAYS TO THOSE WHO KEEP THEIR HANDS CLEAN FROM IDOLATY: ISAIAH 57:13

BUT WHOEVER TRUSTS IN ME WILL INHERIT THE LAND AND POSSESS MY HOLY MOUNTAIN.


"For when I called, you did not answer. When I spoke, you did not listen. You deliberately sinned - before my very eyes- and chose to do what you know I despise.....Your name will be a curse word among my people, for the Sovereign LORD will destroy YOU and will call his TRUE servants by another name" - Isaiah 65:12
IDOLATRY..DO YOU SEE THESE PEOPLE IN THEIR FANCY ROBES COMITTING IDOLATRY? THEY ARE THE ONES THAT THE LORD SHOWED ME IN MY DREAM..DO YOU DARE TO CHALLENGE GOD?